Mural I painted for my nephew who LOVES the ocean!
14 day countdown! Every day closer to my C-section brings mixed emotions. Some days I am so overly excited I can hardly contain my nesting instincts. I love to go around the house cleaning and prepping the baby room. This week I finished the baby room mural. Our “theme” will be honey bears and bees. My stepmom is making the bedding with bears and bees on it. (I can’t wait to see how it turns out! She is such a talented quilter!) I decided not to paint bears on the walls as I thought flowers would be something she could enjoy for longer and grow into.
With the joy of finishing the baby room mural come fearful thoughts. What if she doesn’t come home to see the room and I will once again have to shut the door? It took me a long time to even go into that room again as it was going to be the nursery for the twins.
There are times I let my anxieties get the best of me and all I can do is think about the twins and cry. I miss them so much and having to have a C-section again brings back all of those memories. I fear that our little girl will not breathe and will die in our arms.
I am also struggling with thinking about all the visitors we will have. When I think about other people holding our baby girl I can’t help but get this overwhelming feeling that everything is being taken away from me. I can’t explain it….it feels like I can’t breathe. That being said, finding out that I have 2-3 hours with just myself, the baby and Chris after the surgery makes me feel a whole lot better about visitors. I am hoping once she arrives these feeling go away….I don’t know how I will be when she arrives but I hope I am filled with nothing but happiness and love.
I am so uncomfortable and SO over being pregnant. I am ready to meet our little girl. I am ready to hold her and love her. I am ready to change diapers and dress her in cute outfits. I am ready for sleepless nights and first words.
I would really like to get back into painting murals and since we just booked our Honeymoon Cruise this morning I could use the extra cash 🙂
My mom asked me for some photos last week and I realized most of the murals I have done were before I started this blog so I thought I would post some murals of the past. These were all done in children’s bedrooms.
I am really proud of this mural. It is a shame that the photographs do not do it justice. The butterflies were just so light it was hard to get the right lighting.
I hope Katie enjoys her butterfly haven 🙂 She reminds me a lot of myself when I was a kid. She wants to be an artist when she grows up and enjoys tap, jazz and ballet dance. The only difference is that Katie is very outgoing and talkative and I didn’t speak a word until the first grade haha
Sketches for a mural I am doing next week. My client liked the sketches but is looking for lighter pastel colors. She wants the butterfly wings to almost disappear into the wall. Like Tinker Bell wings. Maybe some fairy dust? The room is a 6 year old’s bedroom and she would like for daughter not to grow out of it in the next year or two. Something she can grow with?
I always get nervous painting on someone’s wall but it’s so much fun! I also hate when people watch me! Wish me luck!
Except for S.Kitty. I don’t mind her watching.