Waiting for you

Waiting for you

14 day countdown! Every day closer to my C-section brings mixed emotions. Some days I am so overly excited I can hardly contain my nesting instincts. I love to go around the house cleaning and prepping the baby room. This week I finished the baby room mural. Our “theme” will be honey bears and bees. My stepmom is making the bedding with bears and bees on it. (I can’t wait to see how it turns out! She is such a talented quilter!) I decided not to paint bears on the walls as I thought flowers would be something she could enjoy for longer and grow into.

baby room 1

baby room 2

baby room 3

baby room 4

baby room closet

With the joy of finishing the baby room mural come fearful thoughts. What if she doesn’t come home to see the room and I will once again have to shut the door? It took me a long time to even go into that room again as it was going to be the nursery for the twins.

There are times I let my anxieties get the best of me and all I can do is think about the twins and cry. I miss them so much and having to have a C-section again brings back all of those memories. I fear that our little girl will not breathe and will die in our arms.

I am also struggling with thinking about all the visitors we will have. When I think about other people holding our baby girl I can’t help but get this overwhelming feeling that everything is being taken away from me. I can’t explain it….it feels like I can’t breathe. That being said, finding out that I have 2-3 hours with just myself, the baby and Chris after the surgery makes me feel a whole lot better about visitors. I am hoping once she arrives these feeling go away….I don’t know how I will be when she arrives but I hope I am filled with nothing but happiness and love.

I am so uncomfortable and SO over being pregnant. I am ready to meet our little girl. I am ready to hold her and love her. I am ready to change diapers and dress her in cute outfits. I am ready for sleepless nights and first words.

Patty

a home in Ireland

a home in Ireland

I recently completed a custom watercolor painting of a home in Ireland. I love that this home is hundreds of years old and still standing! The thatched roof makes it so unique! This project meant a lot to my co-worker as she remembers a painting of her Great Grandfather’s family home when she was growing up but her family does not know where that painting ended up. I was nervous that my version would not live up to her memories but she was very happy with the end result.

watercolor home in Ireland

Cardboard Playhouse

Cardboard Playhouse

As you know my mom and I throw a huge kids Halloween party each year. We usually go all out and spend an entire day building a haunted house. This year we decided to have a “merry not scary” party for the younger ones. Since we didn’t want them to get scared we made playhouses instead. Mom spray painted cardboard boxes a solid color and I added the characters! A little bit of copyright infringement going on haha. The kids had so much fun playing “trick or treat” with the buckets of candy we placed inside each house.  It was chaos most of the day but so much fun! We played pin the tail on the cat, pass the pumpkin, find your prize bucket and had a pull string pinata! Oh and had our annual costume parade and contest! This year I made my husband dress up as Goofy. He’s such a good sport haha

Lights strung up through each house provided perfect hide out lighting.

My “helpers” Love these girls!

Stayed up half the night making dirt cups, mini sandwiches, taco dip, jello cups, cupcakes and probably other things I can’t remember.